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Dec. 2nd, 2006

Laid out by Merlot

You're just laying it out there.
I come home from another preschool meeting,
you've consumed the wine I bought last week for $7.99 at Costco
after putting the kids to sleep,
believing yourself to be making a statement,
drinking alone.

You ask what kind of honesty I want from you,
I tell you that I think we should be just honest, not any kind at all.
You say -never mind- in the way that guarantees I won't leave you alone until
you've told me what you want to tell me anyway.

I badger you into a disclosure of sorts.
Of course I still think you love your past loves!
I admit, it is disturbing to think that they may be approaching you for
some kind of salvation at this point in our lives.

Maybe I'm just jaded,
but you both seem a bit tarnished.
What kind of redemption comes from trysting out of aging insecurity?

Later, as we lie next to each other in the dark night
I am disturbed by how seriously you take it,
how frivolous my secret daydreams of past loves,
colleagues and friends seem to me.
I'm hurt that you think you only love me because I'm practical,
that you say you can never love me like you loved her.

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djande
Dec. 3rd, 2006 02:10 pm (UTC)
Good to have you back among us.

You remind me that I need to start transferring some of my poetry/lyrics over to the computer from the 9,239 pieces of scrap paper i have them jotted on.
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